Great story that will fit perfectly for a non fiction. I have no idea if you've thought of writing a book. But I believe from what I have read, you'll be a great non fiction writer. Aside that, I want you to also know that what you future self is doing to you isn't bullying. It's who you are and who you must become. So, instead of thinking it's bullying you, trust it and do what it demands. Because those things are what we call desires and they're found within us. So, trust that self of you....