Your parents might have started you with religion instead of spirituality just my parents who are both Christian and Muslim did. Therefore, it didn’t opened your mind to spirituality and I guess it’s the more reason you embraced atheism. But, from this very moment from the depth of my heart, I want you to know there’s a higher force governing the universe. Some people call him/her God. Others, the universe, etc. And I’m not telling you this from a religious perspective. I’m not religious and I don’t intend to be because religion is the way. I’m telling you this based on my experience with this force. That, from the experience, I know he/she exist. So, trust me and believe there’s God.